..:: BiTTeRSWeeT TwO-DouBLe-ZeRo-SiX ::..

Tup-tap tup-tap, dah sampai pun penghujung 2006 and today is the last day. Dang, how time flew like a blizzard.. cepatnyer. Reflecting back on this year, mmm, there were some bitter and sweet memories.

Yang bitter tuh, mak ngah (kakak abah aku) dah kembali ke rahmatullah. Berita pemergian dia memang mengejutkan kami sekeluarga. I was really, really sad. The last time I met her was during raya last year. Mak Ngah mmg dah sakit tua and tak larat dah nak berjalan sana-sini tapi disebabkan hari raya, mak ngah mmg berniat nak dtg beraya kat rumah kami. Sebelum mak ngah balik, aku pun salam, peluk cium tangan and kedua-dua pipi dia.. Lepas tu, dia tak lepaskan tangan aku. Sesekali dia tersenyum, kemudian memegang tangan aku dan mengusap-usap lenganku. Lama jugak dia buat camtuh. Kemudian, tetiba dia cakap kat aku..

"Mak Ngah dah tak lama dah... Lepas ni tak dapat nak jumpa lagi" nadanya spt bergurau..

"Eh Mak Ngah ni, jangan la cakap macam tuu.. InsyaAllah kita akan jumpa lagi.." sapa aku.. rasa tersentap pun ada.. sedih pun ada sbb mak ngah cakap macam tu.. tp aku diamkan saje..

Tapi mmg benar seperti kata2 Mak Ngah. Belum sempat kami nak bersua lagi, arwah telah pergi meninggalkan kami dan pemergiannya masih kami rasai. Al-fatihah buat Mak Ngah. Moga rohnya dicucuri rahmat & ditempatkan di kalangan orang2 yg beriman. Al-fatihah.

Yang sweetnyer this year.. I think the most valuable gift that I'd given myself is the gift of FREEDOM.. :-) After several break-ups and make-ups, I finally had the courage to end the mostly-emotionally-and-sometimes-physically-abusive-relationship that I was in and it is definitely terminated for good. Aku ni bukannyer sorg yg kejam.. Chances were given to him many, many times (countless). He changed for quite a bit, but in the end he is still the same control-freak who finds happiness by torturing the one that he said he loves to death. Dah lama pun bersabar (8 tahun, x ke lama tuh? :-O) But I did learned a few things from having gone through this bad experience. I think I've become more stronger than I used to.. aku dapat rasakan yg aku nih lebih tabah and lebih sabar untuk hadapi situasi yang lebih challenging pas nih. One more thing is, walau macam mana pun, aku tau aku takleh nak 'ubah' sesorg tu.. Only that person can change for him/herself. Alhamdulillah, everything that happened to me, happens for a reason. Kalau nak pikir negatif, mmg byk perkara yg negatif tapi kan lebey elok kalau kita pikir yg positif atas setiap musibah yg berlaku kat diri kita, kan??

That one particular relationship ended but it brought about many new friendships and renewed the bond that was once lost with old friends. Aku rasa happy sgt2 sebab dapat kenal kawan2 baru and dapat jumpa balik kawan2 lama.. Especially, my friends kat MCC Kuantan dulu.. adik-beradik ku yg dah lama x jumpa.. huhuhu.. bukannya tak ndak jumpa korg but after i was not allowed to contact with any of my frens by my ex, aku pun tak berani nak contact korang sebab aku nak avoid confrontations.. (bayangkanlah, masa dolu takleh nak pakai handphone beb.. definitely a no-no.. kalo nak jugak, abis la perang besar) Alhamdulillah dpt gak jumpa korang masa raya open house kat rumah along hari tu.. I always loved u guys and missed u guys a lot!!

Raya 2006 with adik-beradiks @ along's house

Other than that, aku pun dapat jumpa kengkawan masa kat UKM dulu. Actually, ari tu aku dah janji ngan Loi Ming to visit Syikin yang baru aje lepas operation (masa bulan Syawal gak). Kitorg pun pegila Hospital Putrajaya on one fine Saturday morning to visit her. Punyalah pandai the both of us sebab tak call dulu b4 going there (konon2 nak wat surprise lah tu :P) Ended up, kitorg yg surprised becoz Syikin dah kuar wad ari tuh.. hahaha, mmg tergelak besar la masa tuh.. So, Loi Ming and I pegilah pulak lunch kat Alamanda (mmm, xdela spesel sgt pun kat situ ek? tp aku pon x abes jejalan kat situ.. :P) and then decided nak kaco sorg lagi kawan kitorg, Lin yg mmg dok kat Putrajaya. Sib baik Lin ada kat rumah.. tengah sarat lagi.. (oh ye, Lin baru je delivered a baby girl.. alhamdulillah and tahniah to Lin and family :-)).. After that baru la jumpa Syikin.. and lastly Loi Ming ajak pulak gi rumah Mr Faidzul (my lecturer and oso supervisor tuk thesis dulu).. Kitorg sesedap aje lepak kat rumah En Faidzul and his wife Mastura with their new baby girl.. lepak punye lepak sampai siap makan dinner lagi.. hehehe, muka tak malu sungguh :P.. All in all it was really a long happy day for me.. A day well spent at Bangi, Putrajaya and Bandar Seri Mahkota.. ala rugi tak bawak kamera aje masa tuh.. (kalo dak sure amek pics byk2kan Loi Ming?)

Dat's about all.. Hopefully, the new year will bring more joy and happiness.. insyaAllah.

..:: ON-OFF-STRESS ::..

Semalam, sambil lepak2 tunggu azan maghrib, aku pun tukar2 channel  kat tv and masuk channel Astro Ria (channel 4 kay bg those yg takde astro). Anyways, ada program Hijrah Remaja kat tv and tetiba menarik minat aku utk melihat rancangan tuh becoz they were discussing the topic on "Tension + Stress + Pressure".  Owh, cam te-tau ajer aku ni yg tgh stress amat sgt skang nih.. huhuhu..

Menarik jugak perbincangan ahli2 panel and oso the guest speaker tuh (Ustaz Zulfan Haidar). Dia pun bg tau pasal teori A-B-C. A is for potential stressor which is org or menda2 yg boley buatkan kita stress. B is for the thoughts that we have on the potential stressor, bila kita dok pk pasal org2/menda2 yg leh wat kita stress. Lastly C is for the action that we take from thinking bout stress (mmm, lebey kurg gituh la kot aku rasa). Ustaz tu pun explain that we should always have the positive reaction when coping with stress and disokong sebulat suara oleh semua yg dlm discussion tuh. Yeah, right.. i do think that all of us are aware bout this kan?? Tp, cuma dia cakap bila kita stress kita kena pikir, kenapa kita nih stress in the first place?? that's where the theory comes in lah. So, nyer.. bila tgh2 stress gituh, try to understand where the stress is coming from.

He also gave an example yg stress nih mmg ada masa2 zaman nabi dulu. Sepertinya masa Nabi Ya'kub a.s. yang stress bila mengetahui yang anaknya Nabi Yusuf a.s. hilang. He cried and cried until he turned blind. But, dia masih lagi terus2an berzikir dan bertawakal pada Allah s.w.t and in the end dia pun dpt berjumpa semula dgn anaknya Nabi Yusuf a.s. and alhamdulillah he retrieved back his eyesight dengan kekuasaan Allah. Then, another story about Saidina Umar Al-Khattab yg juga ditimpa tekanan. Cuma dia mempunyai cara tersendiri utk handle stress. First he will say alhamdulillah and syukur sangat2 becoz dia kena tekanan ni kat dunia dan bukan kat akhirat coz bila kat akhirat nanti mmg dah takleh nak wat apa2 dah pun. Yg second step that he took, i had forgotten. The last step dia akan katakan pada diri dia, alhamdulillah penderitaan saya ini lebih ringan drpd org lain. The ustaz said the best way to manage stress is always train our mind like what Saidina Umar did when facing stressful situations.

Bagus sungguh perbincangan nih, yg membuka mata aku besar2 sket and also mengingatkan aku buat keberapa kalinya yg i always, always need to remain positive and be positive. Tulah aku nih, terlalu ikutkan perasaan and senantiasa lalai ajer. Tu pasal yg leh stress teruks2 tuh.. huhuhu. Padahal, if i stayed positive, insyaAllah everything will be okay kan? wallahu'alam.

Conclusionnyer, semua org mmg facing stress in their lives. Cuma how they handle the stress yg buatkan org tuh okay ke tak. For example, Wardina Saffiyah (the host) said that when she is so stressed dia akan baca Quran byk2 and menangis pada Allah. That's the best way for her to cope with stress. Yup, different people handle it differently. Mmm, yup i sure need to do sumthing bout my stress nih.. 

Okay, i'm off now to do some stress management.. hopefully i'll get better.. insyaAllah.

..:: I.M.T.R.O.U.B.L.E.D ::..

Dearest diary,

Lately, I am really2 stressed out. I just don't know why. One thing's for sure, it's definitely not related to my work becoz, alhamdulillah I can still cope with the workload. Somehow, I just feel like I'm disconnected with myself.. feeling of lost.. losing touch with ME.

Mmm, just recently, I keep having flashbacks of the painful memories... grrhh.. really x larat lah.. really feel frustrated and at times angry with myself for having these snapshots of the past.. Gambaran masih jelas lagi and suara2 masih terngiang-ngiang kat dlm kepala aku. aku tak daya lagi. (kenapalah 'ko' nak kacau aku lagik.. huhu)

I'm not giving up but skrg nih aku rasa mcm patah semangat sikit kat diri sendiri. Aku cepat pulak rasa guilty, rasa down, rasa pessimis. Pastuh, semakin byk aku pk semakin cepat aku rasa exhausted. Once i start thinking, i just couldn't stop. I can't control 'them'. It's like 'they' are having their own way of doin' the thinking for me. Kalau slow2 tuh takpe tp ini tak, mcm bullet train, pacing back and forth lelaju, sib baik tak collide ajer.

Apa aku nak buat? I know there may be some issues that i need to settle. I need to dig deep and figure out.. and skrg nih aku tgh pening, confused.. 

-->> I.M.T.R.O.U.B.L.E.D.!!!

..:: rasa sedih itu ::..

Tiba-tiba hari ini rasa sayu terbit di permukaan hati
Hatiku terasa berat, dadaku merasa sebak sekali
Perasaanku mula menggamit rasa hiba
Begitu sukar untuk aku jelaskan

Aku masih tak mengerti kenapa aku melalui rasa ini
Dari mana datangnya rasa itu yang tidak pun diundang
Mengacau jiwaku yang sedang tenteram dan tenang
Membuatkan aku terjatuh ke dalam rasa kedukaan

Airmata mula bergenang di kelopak mataku
Namun ianya tidak jatuh membasahi pipi
Mengapa ianya tidak begitu seperti selalu
Aku cuba memahami namun tidak dapat mengerti rasa sedih itu

~Nukilan: Linda @ Da-Da, 26 Disember 2006

I did cry when I got back from work today. Tears were rolling down my cheeks.
The feeling of sorrow came and crept into my heart. I am trying to figure out what triggered the emotions.
There could be many reasons. It could be coming from the memories of my past or it may come from the feeling of uncertainties in the future. It could be anything... and here I am still wondering why...

..:: eK-NEe aTTaCk ::..

CAUTION: This info is only intended to those who are having problems like yours truly. Read with care.

Yikes! dah beberapa bulan aku dok ada problem nih, (rasa2nya 2-3 bulan nih kot).  Tak tercapai akalku untuk perasan yg menda2 cam nih pun leh berlaku kat aku bila dah sampai usia2 dewasa gini. Rupa2nya idak, sangkaanku meleset sama sekali.. malah problem aku skrg nih rasa2nya makin teruk aje... huhuhu. Pe menda lah yg aku dok citer nih kan?? Well, if u wanna know... i'm currently having ACNE attacks!

Iyearlah, dodulu mana ada muka aku teruk cam skrg nih. Kalo kena acne pun kekadang aje time2 PMS. Tapi sekarang nih dari satu ke satu aku kena. Pastu kena kat area jawline and chin.. huhuhu, sedey betul.. dan membuatkan aku betul2 malu sebab semua orang dok perasan yg muka aku dah jadik teruk.

Anyways, aku pun ada terbaca satu buku. Kalau jerawat tuh appear kat area jawline and chin, besar kemungkinan ianya disebabkan hormones. Betul ker?? Aku pun buat ler survey (baru je tadik).. untuk dptkan kesahihan. Ha'ah mmg betullah, huhuhu.. hormon aku tengah tunggang-langgang sekrg nih bagaikan keretapi yg tergolek dari landasan.

Okay, so now what?? Mmm.. skrg nih tgh pikir nak gi jumpa doktor kots. Doktor yg adik aku pergi jumpa a few months back. Masa adik aku pegi hari tu, the doctor did recommend her to use Cetaphil cleanser. I just bought one last week and tengah menggunakannya pun (rasa cam kurang cikit jer jerawat aku, tapi cikit ajer..). I also read somewhere that it is simply best cleanser ever for your skin. 

Other than that, aku kena amalkan tips2 (listed below) yg aku amek drpd beberapa website:-

1. Don't over do - cleanse in the morning and evening, and don't scrub that often. Kalau lebih dari yg ditetapkan akan buatkan pimple tuh lagi teruk

2. Quit picking - jangan ngengada nak sentuh2 muka tuh ngan tangan.. nanti akan menyebabkan bakteria merebak dari tangan kena kat muka, pastu muka akan bertambah-tambah teruk nanti

3. Cutdown on stress - aku yang sememangnye stress memanjang, nak kena kurangkannyer.. take 
time-outs.. relaks kejap antara waktu keje tuh.

4. Drink more water - nak kena tambah aku nyer daily water intake.. more than 8 glasses definitely.
Kekadang aku nih terlupa nak minum air.

5. Exercise regularly - dah lama aku tak excercise nih.. sejak lepas bulan pose and bulan syawal, belum lagi start2 nak excercise betul2.. kena buat nih.

6. Eat more veggie and fruits - yg ni skrg ni mmg aku tgh buat pun, tp aku nih kekdg tuh dah beli buah byk2 tapi terlupa nak makan..

7. Choose 'non-comedogenic' - kena make sure kosmetik (powder, foundation etc) tuh non-comedogenic, yg takkan clog pores.

8. Sleep - need to get 8 hours of sleep daily to de-stress skin. Kalau kurg dari 8 jam, mungkin akan menimbulkan akne yg lebih..

To those who do have problems like me, aku paham perasaannya.. mmg boleh ada kesan pada emosi kan?? but need to take action gak. Mmm, do hope that my skin will get better soon, insya Allah. 

Do hope the info given is useful. You can also do your own skin assessment from the Cetaphil website:-
1. Basic Skin Assessment   
2. Detail Skin Assessment

..:: JuGGLiNG eMoTioNs ::..

"When any fit of anxiety or gloominess or perversion of the mind lays hold upon you, make it a rule not to publish it by complaints but exert your whole care to hide it. By endeavoring to hide it, you will drive it away." Dr. Samuel Johnson 

Today was not a good day for me. It all started with two separate and unexpected phone calls when I got to work this morning. Owh, when I had just managed to avoid someone (and the related counterparts) from my past, then suddenly 'BAM!' just like getting hit on the head by a coconut fruit (hehe.. mcm pernah kena pun.. :P) everything turned sour.. :-( But, I was quite amazed at myself.. I managed to retain my composure and talked in the most polite way as possible..

It's just that I don't understand why this 'someone' called me up in the first place.. and then followed by this 'someone's' sister. The relationship had already been terminated months ago.. Why can't his sister accept the situation?? 
No, means no, right??

All my emotions were jumbled up. I tried my best not to fall into the trap of depression. For one minute I was okay, and then the next minute I feel absolutely terrible. What I do know is, I need to fight back all those negativity and not let it get to me....

Alhamdulillah, i'm okay now..

..:: WHaT iN THe WoRLD?? ::..

Penatnya dah taip panjang2, pastu bile klik publish terus ilang.. macam magic si David Blaine tuh pulaks.. (btw, aku suka tengok mamat neh punya show yg tunjuk kat astro tuh david blaine's street magic + he's one good looking guy.. hehe). Actually, aku dah kena 2 kali dah. Penat aku tulis pepanjang, tarus hilang after klik publish.. mmm, so aku tgh pikir 'what in the world' y this thing could happen....

• maybe sebab aku tak patut publish menda2 yg aku dah type pepanjang tuh...
  
• maybe blogger sajer je nak aim aku nyer posting nih... saje je tak bagi aku masukkan entry sebab dengki... hahaha..
• maybe button publish tu camouflage ajer.. sebaliknye bila klik publish tuh sebenarnya tuk delete, pastu tarus ilang posting aku sebelum nie.. pandai laks aku nyer hipotesis
• maybe ada conspiracy theory somewhere, somehow.. pasang2 spy gitu
• maybe ada udang sebalik mee.. makanan pun terbabit sama..

mmm... tu jer kot yg aku leh pk setakat nih.. yg penting nyer... aku FRUSTRATED beb! penat aahh tulis pepanjang tadik... huhuhu.. sedeynyeerr

p/s: aku dah copy and paste kat word pad dulu sebab takmo pisang berbuah kali ke-3.. huhu

..:: FeVeRiSH SuRPRiSe ::..

Alhamdulillah, today i managed to get back to work after suffering a high fever and migraine during the weekend.

Mmm.. guess what? i received a few surprises today....

~~~~~

Early in the morning, i got an sms from a friend asking whether i'll be coming to work today... . 

i gladly replied that insya Allah, i'll be in the office :-) 

Later, i was surprised by her reply saying that she misses me... 

*sob, sob, felt like crying*

~~~~~

When i got to the office, a colleague of mine who sits in front of my workstation and just got out from the morning meeting said,..

    'hey, where have you been??everyone in the office misses you...'   

*owh.. shucks... am i really missed??? *

~~~~~

Later, a few of my colleagues dropped by and asked me...

     'hey, how are you doing??....'    'are you getting better??.....'  'are you okay???....'

and they also gave some advise to take good care of myself.

~~~~~


It's just that... sometimes i feel that no one cares about me... or no one knows if i exist... feeling unimportant and useless...

Is it just me??... or my thoughts are playing tricks on me???

But, today i just realised that there are people, other than my family, who do think about me and cares about me....

Eventhough it was just for a short moment... 

     Somehow it made me feel 'important', made me feel 'happy',....

.....and above all it made me feel 'blessed'

And i also, do truly care of the people who had touched my life..
      thank you so much for being there... 
            thank you so much for your support...

p/s: absence do makes the heart grow fonder... not turning up for a day really made a difference

..:: PeRPiSaHaN - aNuAR ZaiN - OST CiNTa ::..

Perpisahan - Anuar Zain

Ku mengerti perpisahan ini
Bukan kerana kau membenci
Tapi kasih yang pernah ku beri
Tiada lagi bersama

Sering, kala aku terlihatkan mu
Impian nan indah bersulam bahagia

Ku harungi hari demi hari
Bersama wajah tak mungkin akan kembali
Tapi hati masih tak terima
Ditinggalkan sengsara

Keraguan ini bukanlah padamu
Perasaan hati masih rindu
Kekalutan ini hanyalah untukku
Tercari-cari bayanganmu
Tak sanggup aku kehilangan
Kehilanganmu...
Masih tercari-cari...

Keraguan ini bukanlah padamu
Masih tercari-cari bayanganmu
Tak sanggup aku kehilanganmu

*lagu yang penuh emosi... soulful... truly g8.. tears running inside my heart...

 

..:: CiNTa - 5 KiSaH, 1 CeRiTa ::..

Minggu sudah, i finally get to catch CINTA, filem yg sememangnya aku dok tunggu2 nak tengok..
Penantian yg agak lama sejak my sis, ieja who did her practical at GBSB was involved in the 
production of the movie, asyik dok citer kat aku bits & pieces of this movie.. sejak the first time i 
watched the sneak preview kat Tv3's melodi masa bulan puasa yg lepas, aku dah terjatuh CINTA. 
buatkan aku bertambah teruja nak menonton..

 

“Seringkali kita terlalai mengejar apa yang belum pasti hingga kita lupa meraikan satu-satunya perkara yang menjanjikan kebahagiaan.. CINTA..”

Ungkapan yang diutarakan masa opening of the movie, and bagi aku minit2 pertama masa opening tuh membuatkan aku nak tau lebih lanjut apa yg special sgt about CINTA nih... The first scene tuh pun dah ada impact utk buatkan aku fixed my eyes on the movie and to follow the story until the end.... segala emosi yg digarapkan dlm cinta nih dpt aku rasa... rasa sedih, pilu, luka, gembira, sayang, memahami, marah, sepi, kosong, kasihan, simpati, terharu.... macam2 rasa yg aku peroleh dari CINTA.. pendek kata filem nih mmg memukau dan gambarannyer masih lagi jelas terpahat dlm memori walaupun dah lebih dari seminggu aku tonton citer nih... Banyak sgt scenes yg menarik dlm CINTA.. scene2 yg aku takleh nak lupa

• Bila Taufiq (Pierre) for the first time luahkan rasa cintanya pada Arianna (Amani) tapi masa tu ada tren komuter tengah lalu kat depan rumah and so memang tak kedengaranlah kata2 yg diucapkan oleh Taufiq pada Arianna.. *owh, so sweeeeett!! and oso there's a touch of humour in it... *
  
• Bila Harris (Rashidi) nak buat surprise kat wife dia, Airin (Rita Rudaini) and all of a sudden he was the one who got the 'surprise'... *woohh.. kesian kat dia... really felt the hurt, pain and agony that he had to go through..*
• Bila Cikgu Elyas (Dato' Rahim Razali) who has alzheimer, masa tuh di tengah2 Chow Kit dia tak tau di mana dia berada.. *sympathised for him* luckily Rubiah (Fatimah Abu Bakar) who happened to be there, nampak apa yg berlaku and terus gi tolong cikgu Elyas.. *sebak aku tengok this scene..*
• Bila Dhani (Que Haidar) found out what his sister Dyan (Nanu) did for him... pengorbanan seorang kakak pada adik yg disayangi... *nih part paling sedey...menangis aku dlm hati*
• Bila Azlan (Eizlan Yusof) dlm satu press conference, terpaksa menafikan hubungannya dgn Azura (Fasha Sanda) demi utk menjaga status korporatnyer.. and masa tuh Azura heard all of it... *hipokrasi tul mamat nih, geramnyer aku tengok.. sian kat Azura..*
• the little girl who played the daughter of Harris and Airin.. the scene where the dad sent the daughter to her mum's new house.. then the daughter takmo balik... nak ikut her dad and wants him to be happy, takmo sedey2 lagi... *owh, nih part paling2 terharu.. really brought tears to my eyes.. coz it reminded me of a loved one who had to endure the same situation quite some time ago... very sad... sob, sob...*

All i can say is... this is the best malay movie that I've watched so far (not that many on my list pun).. Apart from the storyline, the cinematography for me is really superb... chantek maaa... and the selection of songs in this movie mmg mengancam lagi seswai... really touching to hear Perpisahan by Anuar Zain... sedey siioootttssss... so, it's still not too late if you want to catch this movie... mmm, aku pun kalau ada peluang nak tengok lagik... :-) a few lines from the movie that i really liked..

"Kalau kita bersusah-payah sehari untuk orang yang kita sayang adalah lebih baik daripada bersusah-payah selama-lamanya untuk orang yang kita tak sayang"

"Kadang-kadang orang yang paling kita sayang adalah yang paling susah untuk disayangi"

"Isteri bukanlah hak milik tapi satu anugerah"

Mmm.. byk betul kesan daripada CINTA... membuatkan aku sendiri ingin untuk merasakan cinta... dan memang benar, kalau tiada pahit, duka, sedih, gembira, tawa bukanlah cinta namanya.. namun bagi aku filem nih mmg ada sikit je kekurangan... tidak digambarkan cinta yang lebih agung dan cinta yang abadi iaitu cinta kepada Tuhan... seperti lirik daripada nasyid raihan "kasih manusia sering bermusim, sayang manusia tiada abadi, kasih Tuhan tiada terperi, sayang Tuhan janjiNya pasti....." mmm.. mungkin penulis tak sempat kot nak masukkan elemen2 ketuhanan kat dlm movie nih... overall, CINTA berjaya menambat hatiku...

p/s: nama adik aku appeared at the ending credits.. proud aku sih.. hehe

..:: To Be oR NoT To Be ::..

Be understanding to your enemies.
Be loyal to your friends.

Be strong enough to face the world each day.
Be weak enough to know you cannot do everything alone.

Be generous to those who need your help.
Be frugal with that you need yourself.

Be wise enough to know that you do not know everything.
Be trusting enough to believe in miracles.

Be willing to share your joys.
Be willing to share the sorrows of others.

Be a leader when you see a path others have missed.
Be a follower when you are shrouded by the mists of uncertainty.

Be first to congratulate an opponent who succeeds.
Be last to criticize a colleague who fails.

Be sure where your next step will fall, so that you will not tumble.
Be sure of your final destination, in case you are going the wrong way.

Be loving to those who love you.
Be loving to those who do not love you; they may change.

This is reminding you, "Above all, be yourself."

got this via e-mail from a friend.. the words r really meaningful... wud like to place 'em here... :-)

..:: i'm STiLL HeRe ::..

it has been quite a while since i last updated this blog.. it's not that i purposely refuse to write or don't have anything to write but i just don't seem to meet upon the 'perfect' time to access the internet... no joke!

mmm, and now at the wee-hours of the night *while listening to mariah carey's hero*, i'm back in front of the new kewl pc in my bros room, writing *oppss, typing actually*... you know what, i actually love to write... cause within the last month, i stumbled upon my good old diary during my college years at mcc, kuantan... *reminiscence of ikip and jalan gambang days*.... wowzers! just couldn't believe that i can write... hahaha.. mostly, i write 'bout how i felt.... what goes on around me and also there were lots, and lots of motivational words for myself... hahaha.. it's really funny dowh coz i've been giving myself motivational tips all this while... no wonder, for these past couple of years, i have this urge to be a motivator like Dr Fadzilah Kamsah or H.M Tuah Iskandar.. duh, that answers it.. erk, who knows one day, i might appear in front of the tv screen and have my own show, or may publish my own books on motivational tips and stories and have my own column in the magazine or newspaper *woooo.. keep on dreamin' dear..*

mmm, for the time being.. i think it's best for me to just stick with my blog... mmm, and actually, i really don't know if people do actually read whatever if i have to say or write... *nemind lor, if ppl dun read oso, i can always read back whateva i've written*.. hehehe

till then... over and out... Linda @ Da-Da signing off

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