..:: HE Knows ::..

Allah knows everything that you have gone through
All the happiness and joy you felt
All the sadness and sorrows you had
Allah knows...

When you feel like the world is caving in on you
And you feel so alone and no one cared
Allah knows...

Whatever you're feeling inside
All the good memories and not forgetting the bad
Allah knows...

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In times of distress, recite this Du-a:
‘La ilaha illa anta, subhanaka, inni kuntu minaz-zalimin'
(there is no god but You, You are far exalted and above all weaknesses, and I was indeed the wrongdoer)
source: The Islamic Workplace
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p/s: alhamdulillah, syukur alhamdulillah, aku dah kembali spt biasa.. "Ya Allah, tiada daya upaya melainkanMU, Ya Allah.. yg Maha Besar, Maha Berkuasa atas segala sesuatu.. "

..:: words are just words right? ::..

Pernah tak hadapi situasi macam nih...

"Kau ni kenapa bangang sangat aaahh??"

"Ey, salah la macam tu... Eiii, tak reti2 ke nak buat betul-betul??"

"Kau nih memang tak guna.. memang s%^&&^!!!!!"

First of all, sowwy sebab intro nyer terkasar sket.. bunyi macam tengah marah kan?? Eh, i'm not mad okay? Bukan aku yg tgh marah nih.. aku okay, relax aje nih.. cuma nak mulakan bercerita...

Rasa2nyer mesti kita pernah alami situation macam nih kan?? Terguris tak hati kita kalau ada orang yg ckp macam tu kat kita? Lebih-lebih lagi kalau kata2 tuh terkuar dari mulut org yg kita sayang? Mesti pedih hati kita.. Emm, kalau sekali-sekala tu, maybe boleh consider kots.. tu pun kalau boleh tahan tuk bersabar.. tp kalau dah makan tahun, bertahun-tahun lamanya, boleh tak kita nak sabar?? larat ke lagi kita dikutuk dan dihina begitu sekali??

Emm, kalau lah pulak ada org yg cakap camtuh kat parents kita?? sedih tak rasanya?? mesti sedeykan?? Lebey2 lagi kalau ada org ckp camtuh kat ibu sendiri. Tak ker org tu sedar dia telah mengguriskan hati ibunya?? Walaupun dia tak berniat mcm tuh in the first place.

Orang yg tgh marah, selalunya takkan sedar apa yg dia cakap atau apa yg dia buat. Dia hanya mengikut apa yg emosi dia cakap. Ikut hati dan perasaan..

Orang yg kena marah mungkin akan membalas balik, atau mungkin akan diam.. depending on the person..

Emm, to the angry person.. he/she will say something, some words that will actually destroy the other person.. The person who gets scolded, will either discard those words from his/her mind or will absorb 'em like a sponge..

Words are just words.. but words can be mightier than the sword.. it can actually diminish a person's mind and self worth, bringing that person down to the pits of depression...

Why don't we try to control our temper? Don't be angry. Be more patient. Our words may impact others. Place ourself in their shoes...think of how they would feel when we utter such words..

p/s: Ingatlah, syurga terletak di bawah tapak kaki ibu... peringatan tuk diri sendiri juge.

..:: crazy am i not or am i just unwell ::..

 
sometimes, there are just moments where i can't control my emotions and my thoughts..
i'll get this downward spiral feelings injected into my head..
my mind will get all messed up and feeling of lost and despair will set in..
just thought that i might be going crazy...
whatever it is, i'm still not feeling so well right now... :-(

UNWELL - Matchbox20

All day staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something

Hold on, feeling like I'm headed for a
Breakdown, and I don't know why

But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be

Me, I'm talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
And I know, I know they've all been talking about me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something

Wrong with me, out of all the hours thinking
Somehow I've lost my mind

I've been talking in my sleep
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
Yeah, they're taking me away

Yeah, how I used to be
How I used to be
Well, I'm just a little unwell
How I used to be
How I used to be
I'm just a little unwell

..:: Sad, Sorrow Thots ::..

As I sat alone in the dark
Sadness came and crept into my heart
I tried to ignore it as best as I could
But it grew, stronger than it should
My mind is clouded, I could not think clear
I felt so lost and just wished that I'd disappear
Feeling of hurt infused into every inch of my soul
Now the sorrow and grief has taken control
.
.
I tried so hard not to cry, but the tears just kept rolling by
.
.
I know.. the pain is still there.. somewhere deep inside..
.
.
I know.. the feeling of unwanted.. the feeling of unloved..
.
.
I know.. how it feels to be different.. how it feels to be ignored..
.
.
…....................... where is the love when I needed the most?