..:: i'm ST.iLL W.ai.T.iNg ::..

I said to my soul, be still, and wait without hope
For hope would be hope for the wrong thing; wait without love
For love would be love of the wrong thing; there is yet faith
but the faith and the love and the hope are all in the waiting.
Wait without thought, for you are not ready for thought:
So the darkness shall be the light and the stillness, the dancing.
T.S. Eliot (1888 - 1965)
Source: Four Quartets

Tengah kemas2.. selak2 paper Sun, terjumpa ngan artikel neh.. this girl is actually tired of everything that's happening in her life.. yerlahkan, kalo dok kat KL neh asyik sibuks jer.. mcm aku jugak.. dah berapa saturday & sundays i had spent time in the office.. shucks.. mmg takder life!!

Hmm, dat's y i do things that i wanna do and i know some people will think that i'm wasting my time.. well at least i know i'm doing the right thing and now i feel happy with my life.. more confident with myself.. so in the end, i just don't have to explain why i do such things.. as long as i know dat i'm doin' the right thing and HE is there to witness me.. itu dah cukup..

p/s: the poem is part of the article tuh.. i loved the first four lines.. wait with patience..

..:: M.O.V.E ::..

Hari nih bila masa seme org rehat kat rumah or g ke bazar ramadhan mencari juadah or yg tido kat umah sebab penat pose.. aku pulak? aku kat opis.. bukan atas dasar kerajinan atau kerna aku mmg kena keje hari nih atau sebab2 laen yg sewaktu dengannyer..

Ekceli esok will be an interesting day for me.. i'm moving to a new work location and doing sumthing new - which finally relates to what i studied in uni.. so nyer, hari nih atas dasar keterpaksaan.. namun masih lagi atas kerelaan hati.. aku pun ada kat ofis, sorg2.. sambil2 mengemas, sambil2 dengar lagu, sambil2 menaip kat sini..

Taking a break from packing.. Urgh, won't it be easier if I can be like the sketch above.. bila pindah jer aku buang seme brg2 aku and g tempat baru mintak pulak brg2 baru.. hehehe.. sure org ckp "ape kejadahnyer awak wat camtuh.. buang tabiat ker? ingat opis nih bapak engko yg punyer?" hehe..

Takde citer nak citer.. Yg penting, aku ada keje lagi nak wat.. sempat ke idak nak abeskan hari nih, x to ler.. buat aje la...

..:: Se.La.MaT BeR.Pu.aSa ::..

Hari ni dah nak masuk empat hari kita berpuasa dan rasanya blom lagi terlewat tuk ku wish everyone selamat berpuasa dan moga ramadhan kalian kali ni lebih bermakna...

..:: wel.co.me.ba.ck ::..

it's been months since the last time i wrote in this blog of mine.. maaf ya pembaca2 sekalian.. [ada ke pun yg baca].. gue bukannya menyepi dong, tp enggak bisa nulis.. kebelakangan ini gue capek sekali.. langsung tak dpt menulis di sini.. huhu, mcm ler pandai pun ckp indon.. nak nonton sinetron pun jarang sekali..

owh, btw.. mmg i bz sgt.. these past few months mmg hidup penuh ngan aktiviti.. dat's y i tak tulis.. but, rasa tuk menulis, mengarang, mengeluarkan idea dan pendapat serta perasaan terpendam dlm lubuk ati tuh tetap ada.. mmg rindu sgt2.. i miss u my blog... huhu, kalau blog nieh orang sure dia epi punye sbb ada gak org yg rindu, tak gitu?.. tp, bukan aar.. hehe.. :-P

k la.. i pun bukan nak tulis pepjg.. nak tido maa.. esok wa keje la.. apa2 pun yg penting i'm back.. n i miss my blog.. huhu..

c ya in my next post.. :-)

..:: HE Knows ::..

Allah knows everything that you have gone through
All the happiness and joy you felt
All the sadness and sorrows you had
Allah knows...

When you feel like the world is caving in on you
And you feel so alone and no one cared
Allah knows...

Whatever you're feeling inside
All the good memories and not forgetting the bad
Allah knows...

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In times of distress, recite this Du-a:
‘La ilaha illa anta, subhanaka, inni kuntu minaz-zalimin'
(there is no god but You, You are far exalted and above all weaknesses, and I was indeed the wrongdoer)
source: The Islamic Workplace
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p/s: alhamdulillah, syukur alhamdulillah, aku dah kembali spt biasa.. "Ya Allah, tiada daya upaya melainkanMU, Ya Allah.. yg Maha Besar, Maha Berkuasa atas segala sesuatu.. "

..:: words are just words right? ::..

Pernah tak hadapi situasi macam nih...

"Kau ni kenapa bangang sangat aaahh??"

"Ey, salah la macam tu... Eiii, tak reti2 ke nak buat betul-betul??"

"Kau nih memang tak guna.. memang s%^&&^!!!!!"

First of all, sowwy sebab intro nyer terkasar sket.. bunyi macam tengah marah kan?? Eh, i'm not mad okay? Bukan aku yg tgh marah nih.. aku okay, relax aje nih.. cuma nak mulakan bercerita...

Rasa2nyer mesti kita pernah alami situation macam nih kan?? Terguris tak hati kita kalau ada orang yg ckp macam tu kat kita? Lebih-lebih lagi kalau kata2 tuh terkuar dari mulut org yg kita sayang? Mesti pedih hati kita.. Emm, kalau sekali-sekala tu, maybe boleh consider kots.. tu pun kalau boleh tahan tuk bersabar.. tp kalau dah makan tahun, bertahun-tahun lamanya, boleh tak kita nak sabar?? larat ke lagi kita dikutuk dan dihina begitu sekali??

Emm, kalau lah pulak ada org yg cakap camtuh kat parents kita?? sedih tak rasanya?? mesti sedeykan?? Lebey2 lagi kalau ada org ckp camtuh kat ibu sendiri. Tak ker org tu sedar dia telah mengguriskan hati ibunya?? Walaupun dia tak berniat mcm tuh in the first place.

Orang yg tgh marah, selalunya takkan sedar apa yg dia cakap atau apa yg dia buat. Dia hanya mengikut apa yg emosi dia cakap. Ikut hati dan perasaan..

Orang yg kena marah mungkin akan membalas balik, atau mungkin akan diam.. depending on the person..

Emm, to the angry person.. he/she will say something, some words that will actually destroy the other person.. The person who gets scolded, will either discard those words from his/her mind or will absorb 'em like a sponge..

Words are just words.. but words can be mightier than the sword.. it can actually diminish a person's mind and self worth, bringing that person down to the pits of depression...

Why don't we try to control our temper? Don't be angry. Be more patient. Our words may impact others. Place ourself in their shoes...think of how they would feel when we utter such words..

p/s: Ingatlah, syurga terletak di bawah tapak kaki ibu... peringatan tuk diri sendiri juge.

..:: crazy am i not or am i just unwell ::..

 
sometimes, there are just moments where i can't control my emotions and my thoughts..
i'll get this downward spiral feelings injected into my head..
my mind will get all messed up and feeling of lost and despair will set in..
just thought that i might be going crazy...
whatever it is, i'm still not feeling so well right now... :-(

UNWELL - Matchbox20

All day staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something

Hold on, feeling like I'm headed for a
Breakdown, and I don't know why

But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be

Me, I'm talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
And I know, I know they've all been talking about me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something

Wrong with me, out of all the hours thinking
Somehow I've lost my mind

I've been talking in my sleep
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
Yeah, they're taking me away

Yeah, how I used to be
How I used to be
Well, I'm just a little unwell
How I used to be
How I used to be
I'm just a little unwell

..:: Sad, Sorrow Thots ::..

As I sat alone in the dark
Sadness came and crept into my heart
I tried to ignore it as best as I could
But it grew, stronger than it should
My mind is clouded, I could not think clear
I felt so lost and just wished that I'd disappear
Feeling of hurt infused into every inch of my soul
Now the sorrow and grief has taken control
.
.
I tried so hard not to cry, but the tears just kept rolling by
.
.
I know.. the pain is still there.. somewhere deep inside..
.
.
I know.. the feeling of unwanted.. the feeling of unloved..
.
.
I know.. how it feels to be different.. how it feels to be ignored..
.
.
…....................... where is the love when I needed the most?

..:: six weird things - weird ke? ::..

I'VE BEEN TAGGED!!!! tsk, tsk... I really had the sixth-sense that I'm gonna get tagged someday, somehow.. yikes and it's true. Actually, I've been reading RotiKcgMerah's blog (she's the sista of my BFF).. and dia pun telah men'tagg'kan adiknyer which is FaRHizeTWisTeD (my BFF) and si Fahy nih pulak ngan berbesar hati telah menge'tag' kat aku. aiyahh.. :P

So, I need to list down SIX WEIRD THINGS bout myself. Aiseyman, aper menda lah aku nak tulis neh??? Selepas mengkaji secara mendalam kat diri aku, inilah menda2 pelik yg aku buat selama neh.. (maybe weird to some, but normal to others).. teehee.. do have a good read and lemme know if it's weird.

Nota: Pengakuan yg benar neh, benar sebenar-benarnya.. tiada yg benar melainkan benar semata-mata.. ini menjawab kpd tambahan rules yg dibuat oleh mrFarhy.. :-)

1. My Fetish with Pharma-Pharm
I have an obsession with pharmacy and anything that has to do with it... teehee :P. If I go to shopping malls it's a must for me to visit at least one pharmacy, either it be Watsons or Guardian. Tak beli apa2 puuuunnnn takpe, tp mesti kena gi jugak or else rasa cam tak complete aje my outing for that day. I could spend hours just browsing tru the products on display. tzee..

Belum abes lagi nih. If I read the papers, I'll always be on the lookout for the advertisements from these two particular pharmacies. Then, I'll compare the prices and buy only the cheaper ones lor. During sales, I'll stock up on the items that are on discounted price (always, always, always.. budget in mind u). heh.. In the end, I'll have a small inventory of items that I need. :) (tak yah ler haku fenin2 nak search hi-n-lo bila aku run out of sumthing nanti.. get it?).

Lastly, the very best thing that I anticipate coming December. Yes! The booklets from Watsons and Guardian. uih, best! best! best! I'll get this thrilling sensation each time I get the booklets (ala, yg tunjuk promotional items masa bulan 12 tuh). Nanti pagi2 before gi keje, aku selak2 suratkhabar dulu nak amek booklet tuh, and I'll make sure that no one touches it before I do. muahaha.

~Kak Lina selalu ejek aku sbb ada stok cam kat pharmacy tp nanti when she runs out of sumthing, aku punye jugak ler yg dia nak amek.. :P noti!

2. I can't live if living is without you, owh tissue!
Everywhere I go and in everything that I do, I'll always carry this thing around.. my trusted pocket tissue. :) Aku mmg takley survive la kalo takde tisu. Once upon a time masa kecik2, aku selsema, pastu tak bawak tisu.. Adoi!! kat mana lagi nak lap idung yg dah berair tuh?? huhuhu.. nak tak ndak aku guna tangan pastu aku lap kat baju sekolah.. eeeewww... mmg ler geli sgt.. yikes! Sejak dari tuh, I vowed to always bring pocket tissues with me. Tisu bukan sebarang tisu. Right now brand yg aku paling2 suka is Royal Gold ~ Luxurious Interleaf Hanky, comes in 3-Ply (10sheets).

~Kengkawan aku ler yg paling suka sbb dorg leh pow aku nyer tisu bebila dorg nak. :P bila korg nak beli korg nye sendiri?? heh, kiddin'

3. McD's french fries with choc sundae.. i'm lovin it! muahs!
Buat aku menda neh mmg rasa yummylicious sangat, sangat, saaannnggaaattt... McDonald's french fries yg panas2 tuh dicelup dalam chocolate sundae. Chocolate okay? No other flavour.. tiada kompromi. Yum, yum, yum.. just the thought of it makes my mouth all watery laaa.. But, rite now I cannot indulge in this delectable mixture. huhuhu, sedey siots.. (ada la reasons nyer, tak perlu tau :P)

~my nephew, muhammad dah follow Da-Da's footsteps dah. Kalo gi McD mmg sohih mengorder fries with sundae choc and oso nuggets. Pastu, mula la sessi dippin mendippin the fries and nuggets into the sundae.. buat cam cecah sos ajer... give it a try! nanti addicted.. heh.

4. Pandang2, aku Jeling2, tapi....
Benda neh aku mmg takleh nak buat. Kalau aku buat gak, nanti secara otomatik aku akan rasa a very sharp pain kat mata aku pastu naik sampai ke kepala and buatkan aku tarus fenin-fenin.. mendanyer? aku takley Jeling! Serious, I'll feel the pain and get a headache each time. Tp, takde la aku nak buat kat sesaper pun. Cuma try mengeksperimen kat diri sendiri je. Sebab jeles tengok adik aku ieja, boleh jeling2 sokmo..

~Tak aci, tak aci.. aku pun nak jeling gak once in a while...

5. Mirror, mirror on the wall... why eye don't see you at all...
Ini aku rasa mmg aku weirdo.. Ada masa2 tertentu, when I stand in front of a mirror, I can't make eye contact with myself. Aku takley nak buat eye-to-eye connection. Neh aku pun tak tau apa hal leh jadik lagu ni? So, kalau tiba aje masa2 gini, aku akan pandang kat tempat lain. No way aku nak pandang mata aku sendiri. Contohnyer, aku siap2 pakai tudung cepat2 tanpa pandang kat mata aku.. tengok kat tudung tuh.. and bila nak pakai make up, aku pakai small mirror or use the mirror in the compact powder supaya aku tak yah nak tengok mata aku. Pelikkan?

~I've just experienced it today. Menda nih on and off, kejap ada kejap takde.. mmg mysteriously weird!

6. I ALONE Love You... I ALONE Tempt You...
Neh mmg perangai aku yg paling2 weird... i'll frequently separate myself from people.. gilos??!! heh.. K, ada masa2 tertentu, eyy.. rasanya most of the time aku akan isolate kan diri dr orang, orang dan orang... erk? bukan aku ada problem ngan sesaper pun.. takdelah.. just suke-suki nak menyendiri and dah terbiasa kots. Contohnyer, kalau masuk bilik and ada org kat dlm bilek, i will just enter the room and get the things that I need and then gi dok kat tempat lain. Ini baru satu part..

There are times when I just lurve to take walks on my own.. heh, aku pun baru aje jalan sengsorg siang tadik.. lepas gi visit my fren at KL Sentral, singgah kat KLCC, then balik rumah jalan kaki sorg2.. dlm 20 minit jer. Dah lama tak buat camnih, so ari neh rasa best semacam aje.. tzee, jln kaki sorg2 pun ley jadik best???!! Tak kisah ler apa org nak kata, tp bagi aku mmg best sebab masa nilah aku leh lost in my own world.. :) crazee!

Owh, ya.. FYI menda neh dah biasa dibuat dan diamalkan drpd waktu time2 sekolah menengah dolu2. Al-maklumlah bila dah naik form two, kenalah pandai2 balik dari sekolah asrama kat Seremban tuh sendiri bila time cuti. yelah, abah tak ndak amek aku kat TKC kalo cuti pendek, mmg kenalah naik bas SKS tuh sendiri. So, when I arrived at Puduraya and usually it's a Friday kan, time tuh around 4-5pm, dah jem pun.. Nak naik cab, takmo bazir duit and tak suka nak buat small talk ngan pokcik cab tuh.. Nak suh org amek, takde saper pun nak amek. So, aku pun decided tuk jalan kaki dari Puduraya ke rumah aku kat area Kompleks Kraf skang nih. Jauh tuh... dalam 5 kilometer kots. Dengan beg yg digalas kat bahu, aku jalan le sorg2 menapak langkah demi langkah hingga sampai kat rumah. Bila sampai aje kat rumah and tukar aje baju, nampak kesan merah2 kat bahu.. heh. cam sedey siots.. huhuhu.. tu pasal la jugak bahu aku senget sebelah.. teehee.

~rasa2nya pernah dua kali jalan kaki dlm hujan.. abes semua basah kuyup
~'til now still suke bangat jalan kaki sorg2.. emm, pasnih maybe aku leh buat walkathon jauh2 sket eyy.. heh.. bagi le cadangan dari KL ke mane??

Fiiiuuhh. Abes jugak akhirnye selepas penat memikir. Now it's my turn to tag others. teehee.. and Who will it be?? Who are the lucky ones?? Drum roll pleassseeeee...

OKay, I wanna tag Ubisetela, She Doesn't Like Mondays, Azian, Efie, Striker and PakDuk. Citer jangan tak citer k?? ;-)

Rules of the game: Each player of this game starts out by telling 6 weird things about themselves on their own blog, as well as state the rules clearly. At the end, you will need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list out their names. After you do that, leave them a comment on their blogs letting them know you tagged them.

Additional Rule from mrFarhy: kalau tak jawab bedosa, kalau menipu lagi bedosa besarrrrr...

p/s: saper yg dah kena tag ngan aku tuh, do be a sport and list down ur weirdness k? nak sgt tau nih.. teehee.

..:: too close to disaster ::..

Firman Allah:
Sesungguhnya keadaan-Nya apabila Dia menghendaki sesuatu hanyalah berfirman: "Jadilah!" maka terjadilah ia. (surah Yaasiin, ayat 82)


Aku masih lagi terkejut dgn kejadian yg berlaku semalam. Selepas solat isyak tadi, jari-jemari tangan dan kakiku rasa sejuk sekali. Jantungku berdegup dgn kuat dan sesekali rasa sakit pd dada. Gambaran peristiwa cemas yg kulalui masih lagi bermain-main di ingatanku... apa2 pun aku bersyukur sgt2 kami semua terselamat.....

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We were supposed to depart from our house to Ipoh at 7.30am yesterday. Tp spt biasalah, bila plan tu tak semestinya jadi kan?? After dilly-dally here and there kitorg pun bertolak from our home nearly around 10.00am tuk gi Ipoh to attend a relative's wedding.

The car was driven by my big bro-Abg Shah, my big sis-Kak Lina sat at the co-pilot seat, my mum, my nephew-Muhammad and myself sat at the pasengger's seat at the back. Before bertolak, abg Shah dah letakkan Al-Quran terjemahan dekat atas dashboard depan cermin kereta pemandu. This is what he usually does if he travels far distances and normally abg aku mmg suka bawak Al-Quran terjemahannya tu ke mana2 kalau dia keluar. Mungkin nanti senang dia nak baca bila ada masa terluang. :)

Dah lebih dekat sejam dlm kereta, anak buah aku, Muhammad dah mula merengek-rengek sbb kelaparan. Dia tak breakfast b4 bertolak tadi. Nasib baik my mum dah bawak bekal roti sapu Nutella tuk dia makan. Tp kali nih dia takmo makan pulak. Puas dah aku pujuk suruh makan tp tak mau. Sibuk dia mintak nak makan nasi goreng cina. Sabar ajelah. Aku pun ckp kat dia lagi, "Muhammad, the shop is still far away. You need to eat something if not nanti perut Ahmad sakit.." Effort aku sia2 aje sebab dia still takmo makan.

Pastuh, abg aku pun trylah pulak pujuk dia suh makan. Being the only child dan anak yg manja, lepas aje kena pujuk ngan ayahnya, Muhammad terus ckp ok tp dgn syarat dia dpt duduk kat depan. :P (cheeky little boy) So, he went in front and sat on Kak Lina's lap sambil makan roti dengan riang-ria sekali. Abis aje makan, Ahmad decided to sit in front sbb nak tido kat depan.. sibuk aje budak kechik nih.. :P

There were lots of cars on the road. Maklumlah, dah cuti CNY kan.. it was as expected pun. Tp, okay la takde jem ke apa. Abg Shah was driving on the right lane and within the speed limit. (rasa2nya around 100km/hr.. yelah tak berani nak bwk laju2 sbb ada byk polis buat rondaan kali nih). Kereta mmg byk, bertali-arus.

Then suddenly.... abg Shah ckp, "Astaghfirullah hal azim.."

Aku yg tgh rileks bersandar kat blkg terus terbangun dari seat. From the corner of my eyes, aku ternampak sebuah kete warna hitam kat sebelah kiri cermin tingkap (remember, we were driving on the right lane). Aku pun terus aje tengok kete tuh..

Gila punye laju!!!!.. dah ler tadi dia potong sebelah kiri pastu dia try pulak nak overtake kete kat depan dia. The black car cuba nak masuk lane sebelah kanan balik which is the space right in front of our car in the lane that we were on. Tp tak boleh sbb mmg tak cukup tuk dia masuk..

Next, dgn tak semena-mena the black car tuh brake to slow-down sbb baru terperasan agaknyer kete depan yg dia cuba nak potong tuh is a POLICE pajero (jeep isuzu polis trafik warna putih). Then, within a split-second... the police jeep pun brake jugak and the black car memotong jeep police tuh tp kete hitam tuh tak terlepas memotong jeep tersebut....

"BOOOOOMMMMM!!!..." Kete hitam tuh dah berlanggar dgn jeep polis, terkena blkg bontot jeep polis di sebelah kanan. The jeep melambung dari jalan raya dan berpusing-pusing sebyk tiga, empat kali sebelum terbabas tepi highway. Aku terkejut melihat apa yg berlaku. Tak sangka jeep polis yg sebesar-besar itu boleh melambung mcm kete mainan. The black car was still moving....... After that, it seemed like everything else went into a slow-motion mode... apa yg aku nampak ada serpihan-serpihan dari perlanggaran tersebut melayang-layang ke udara.. ada yang terbang dan nyaris2 nak terkena our window screen..

Bukan itu sahaja.. there was a white colored car in front of us (tak ingat kete apa), kete tuh dah terlanggar bumper yg terpelanting dr kete yg eksiden tadik.. the white car was out of control and berpusing ke sebelah kiri (lebey dr angle 45 darjah) and the side of the car was facing us.. bontot kete tuh sipi2 dah nak kena divider kat tgh2 highway..

Aku mmg dah mula panik.. sebab masa tuh kete kitorg pun tgh bergerak jugak... Aku khuatir kereta kami akan berlanggar pulak dgn kereta putih yg kat depan tuh... "Ya Allah! tolonglah kami.. selamatkanlah kami!", aku hanya sempat berbisik kat dlm hati.. Tekak aku jadik kering.. jantung aku berdegup kencang.. Aku tergamam... dan aku rasa org lain dlm kete pun sama dgn aku.

Aku tak berapa ingat exactly selepas tuh.. tp alhamdulillah, the white car regained control and dpt pusing balik and moved on.

Abg Shah slowed-down and drove the car to the side of the road. All of us in the car was silent for a few seconds which felt like hours. Then, Kak Lina broke the silence... "Abg Shah, cepat, cepat, pegi tolong polis tuh..." sebab dah terperasan yg tiada org lain pun nak membantu.

Dari tempat duduk, aku menoleh ke belakang.. jeep polis tuh berada lebih kurg 50 meter di belakang tempat kami berhenti. Jeep tuh dah terbalik dan keempat-empat rodanya dah mengadap langit. Tak nampak pun orang yg kuar dari jeep tuh.

Abg Shah pun kuar dari kete dan mula nak lari ke arah jeep tuh. Tp, dia patah balik utk ambik handphone. Kemudian dia berlari balik ke arah jeep tuh. Abg Shah sorg aje yg pegi ke arah jeep tersebut.

Aku pun kuar dari kete utk melihat situasi yg berlaku. Kaki aku masih rasa shaky, tangan aku menggeletar, berdebar-debar rasa dada aku.. Masih tak nampak rupa manusia yg keluar dari jeep tersebut. "Ya Allah! Kau selamatkanlah mereka" tak henti2 aku pk pasal mangsa kemalangan tersebut. Bagaimana kalau mereka tak lagi bernyawa?

Abg Shah pun sampai kat tempat jeep polis tuh. Masa nih, takde orang lain pun yg berhenti untuk tolong. Kereta2 lain mmg byk sgt on the road. The cars only slowed down to view what's going on and moved on. Kenapa takde org nak berhenti?? Kenapa takde org lain nak tolong?? Kenapa?? Is it becoz it's a police car?? Pelik jugak rasanya...

Then, aku nampak abg Shah pegi dekat side driver tuh and meninjau keadaan mangsa. Alhamdulillah, ternampak sorg anggota polis kuar dari bahagian pemandu. Then, my brother went to the other side, another policeman came out from the jeep. To my surprise, one of the policeman yg baru aje kena eksiden tuh, boleh lagi pegi kat tepi highway tu and meniup wisel tuk suruh kereta-kereta yg kat jalan tuh to move on. Adoi, dah tercedera pun masih lagi nak jalankan tugas.. (macam dah kena brain-washed aje dorg nih-spt kata Kak Lina).

Aku pun terpandang pada kete hitam yg berhenti beberapa jarak di hadapan kereta kami. Rupa2nya itu adalah kete hitam yg melanggar jeep polis tuh (nampak kesan kemek pada bahagian depan kiri kete tuh). Dan aku jugak dpt tengok pemandu kete tuh kuar diikuti dgn penumpang2 lain. Oh, org berbangsa 'C' rupanya. Dorg pun berdiri kat tepi saja. After a few moments, the driver walked to the police jeep... (what happened to the rest will be written at the bottom as told by Abg Shah)

Kak Lina, my mum, muhammad and myself just waited for everything to be settled. In the end, syukur Alhamdulillah sangat2 kami semua terselamat....

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As told by Abg Shah.....
Abg Shah sampai kat tempat jeep tuh terbalik. Dia asyik terpk kalau2 ada oil leaking from the jeep sebab ada probability tuk jeep tuh meletup ke ape... Abg Shah cakap dia nampak semua barang2 dlm jeep tuh bertaburan kat merata-rata tempat. He went to the driver's seat and tengok polis tuh okay and menolong polis tuh kuar dari jeep.

Then, dia gi pulak kat co-pilot punya side.. Polis tuh menumbuk tingkap jeep tuh dengan tangannya. Dia pun kuar dari jeep tersebut dan dia genggam tangan dia ntuk menumbuk Abg Shah sebab dia pk Abg Shah yg telah langgar jeep dorg.

Abg Shah pun ckp, "Tolong, tolong encik.. bukan saya yang langgar kereta encik.. Saya nak tolong saje.."

Ntah, abg Shah cakap.. bila dah kena camtuh agaknye, polis tuh jadik blur and tarus naik angin. Tambah pulak dia jenis baran. After a few minutes, baru polis tuh sedar apa yg sebenarnya terjadik kat dia.

Tp, that's not the case with the driver in the black car who came to the crash site. Dia pun dah nak kena tumbuk ngan polis tuh sebenarnya. Nasib baik ada abg aku yg jadik mediator. Abg Shah pun suruh driver tuh pegi balik kat kete dia dulu and biar dia ckp ngan polis tuh. huhuhu, Abg Shah jadik HERO lah pulak... :)

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Behind the scenes...

-Abg Shah istighfar sebab dah ternampak kete hitam tuh menyelit-nyelit dan memotong kenderaan lain dengan laju from the rearview mirror.

-Kak Lina cakap masa dia nampak serpihan2 dari kete yg kena eksiden tuh melayang and nak terkena kete kitorg, dia dah tutup mata dia and tutup sekali muka Muhammad sebab tak ndak bagi Muhammad tengok.

-Abg Shah cakap dia pun tertutup sikit mata dia masa ternampak benda2 tuh melayang, tindakan refleks katanya.

-Aku sorg aje yg tengok eksiden tuh dan menda2 yg melayang tanpa tutup2 mata and aku boleh diam aje walaupun dlm hati, Allah sahaja yg tau betapa cemas nyer aku waktu tuh (adoi, tak sangka aku camtuh.. usually kalau apa2 aku yg paling cepat panik and cepat sekali menjerit!)

-Aku macam ingat2 lupa apa yg berlaku kat kete hitam exactly selepas perlanggaran tuh sebab tengah betul2 tengok kat arah depan window screen kete kitorg.

- Ada lagi satu kete in front of the police jeep which was a grey mercedes. Kete nih pun okay sebab nampak kete nih berhenti on the road side after the accident.

-Kete putih in front of ours tuh jalan terus after the accident and tak berhenti pun.

-Aku ngan family aku semua dah tak tertahan nak gi toilet lepas abes aje accident tuh. Tindakan spontan rasanya.:P

-Smsed ieja, adik aku.. dia cakap kalaulah ada camcorder waktu tuh, boleh aje record the whole thing... :P, mana nak tau jadik lagu tuh adik oii..

-Syukur alhamdulillah kitorg semua selamat and kereta pun tak kena apa2.. mungkin sebab Abg Shah bawak Al-Quran dlm kereta tuh sekali..

-Kitorg tengah dengar nasyid Yusuf Islam and one of Muhammad's fav song when the accident happened.

-Maybe it's fated that kitorg bertolak lambat and Abg Shah supposed to help out in this incident

-Agaknya, polis2 tu terselamat becoz dorg pakai seat belt. Kalau idak, sure dorg dah terpelanting kuar dari jeep tuh.

-Kak Lina cakap, sure org dlm kereta2 lain yg passed by cakap lebey kurg gini.. "Haa, tengok tuh.. polis pun bawak laju2.. dah eksiden pun.. haaa, baru padan muka.." hehehe... akak aku nih pandai pulak buat skrip.. :P

-Abg Shah, Kak Lina ngan aku pelik naper rakyat mesia tak berhenti right after accident tuh?? Dorg nih tak berperikemanusiaan ke?

-Ada 2, 3 org yg dtg nak tolong lebey kurg 45 mins after the accident. Tp, itu org yg tolong sebab nak buat duit punye.. (i know coz they used walkie-talkie and usually depa nih keja ngan bengkel repair kete punya.. 'call man' kan?)

-Abg Shah mcm polis pulak suruh kete2 yg gerak on the road tuh berhenti kejap sebab dia nak kutip serpihan2 menda yg terpelanting kat atas jalanraya

-Nasib baik the jeep landed on tanah merah. Kalau termasuk ditch or gaung, tak taulah macam mana.

-The place which the accident occurred was somewhere after Tanjung Malim.

-Accident tuh happened dekat selekoh jalan.. maybe contributed to the impact yg jeep tuh melambung..

-The incident that happened mmg macam dalam movie, i tell u..

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p/s: going to be one of my unforgettable memories.

..:: i'll be alright ::..

A beautiful song by the incredible-looking-and-stunning ANGGUN.  I wud like to dedicate this song to those of u out there who had experienced or currently experiencing the heart ache phase in ur life (like urs truly.. in the past..) with a msg U'll B Alrite...




Tell me is it worth the pain
When your pride plays the wrong game
Blinded by suspicious mind
Thought you could
Ruled my heart and crossed the line

In everything you see
Keep everything but me

Though my broken heart, tear my dreams apart
I’ll be alright, I’ll be alright

Just a broken heart, not a war to fight
I’ll be alright, I’ll be alright

Keep that bad taste in your mouth
Have your truth stay on your side
Unleash all your demons free
Cause they’ve been hide in
All that you’ve refused to see

Take everything but me

Though my broken heart, tear my dreams apart
I’ll be alright, I’ll be alright

Just a broken heart, not a war to fight
I’ll be alright, I’ll be alright

All fears aside, I’ll be alright

Through the years, many tears
I have wasted
I’ve moved on, moving on
Can’t erase, can’t replace
What I’ve tasted
Life goes on and on
  
p/s: Luv ANGGUN n luv this song coz everything describes what i had gone thru..

..:: in pursuit of happiness ::..

Previously, I used to think that I can only be happy when I was in love with that 'special someone'. But, after had gone through months of single hood, I am definitely wrong on those thoughts. I now know exactly that I can be happy by myself, doing my own things and making ME happy. Alhamdulillah.

List of things that make me happy... :-)

• to know that I'm being monitored by the superior higher power which is Allah the almighty, 24/7, 365days/year.. 'til the end of my journey.
  
• to wake up in the mornings and just glad to be alive so that I can do something useful for the day.
• to have food, clothes, and a roof over my head.. just the basic necessities.
• to be surrounded by wonderful people in my life who are my family and close friends which I truly love with all my heart.
• to catch the rays of the morning sun when I'm off to work.
• to be occupied with work which gives me satisfaction when I get to complete each tasks.
• to be able to have conversations and share my thoughts with others.
• to try and take good care of myself spiritually, emotionally and healthily.
• to be able to write my thoughts in this blog.
• and the list goes on...

I was trying to look for a good definition of happiness and I came accross this one (below) which I totally agree...

Finding happiness is like finding yourself. You don't find happiness, you make happiness. You choose happiness. Self-actualization is a process of discovering who you are, who you want to be and paving the way to happiness by doing what brings YOU the most meaning and contentment to your life over the long run. (This definition of happiness by David Leonhardt, The Happy Guy)

..:: two-007 bandung trip - Pt. 1 ::..

This is not my first time going to Bandung, Indonesia. I went there last year with my family and a few of close family-friends. Last year punye trip mmg best. We did the whole sight-seeing thingy. We went up to the mountains of Tangkuban Perahu. The view was really spectacular. First time dpt experience melawat area gunung berapi, cuma tak tahanlah ngan bau sulfur yg menusuk idung..

On top of Tangkuban Parahu -- look at the sulfuric smokes

We also went to the hot springs. A few of us took a dip in the hot, almost like temperature-boiling water. Aku aje yg tak masuk mandi sbb tak suka panas dowh. (teringat pulak masa form 2 kena jadik bahan uji kaji celup tgn dlm air panas & air sejuk..tsk tsk..)

Hot Springs @ Tmn Rekreasi Sari Ater

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K, that was last year. This time around my sisters (big sis: Nana & younger sis: ieja) and i went to Bandung for the second time. We were also joined by ieja's friend, Ainee and her two aunties (Mak Lang and Mak Nyang). Ainee followed us last year. So, the six of us, all girls/ladies/women pergilah ke Bandung with one mission in mind which is SHOPPING!!! he he he..

Yeah, apart from the tourist spots, this place is also a paradise for shoppers coz there r lots and lots of factory outlets. Kalo kat mesia kan ada Reject Shop or F.O.S. shj.. and summore kat sini choices are very2 limited. Tapi kat Bandung, ada byk sesgt factory outlets.. Mostly yg jual branded stuff, mainly apparels la.. i.e, Guess, Esprit, Moschino, Armani, Polo, 7 Jeans.. to name a few. (ada byk lagi dowh).. all u need to bring is ur $$$$$$ or credit cards.. and oso a big suitcase to fill in the things that u have bought.. hehehe, talking from experience nih.


1st day - 22/01/07
Our flight from LCCT @ KLIA is at 7.35am.. can't do anything about it since there's only one flight to-and-fro KL-Bandung. Alamak, nak tak ndak kenalah bangun pagi. Sampai kat airport, we were greeted by Ainee and her aunties. Mulalah sesi suai-kenal gituh with her aunties.. cuma, kelakar coz Mak Lang really speaks fluent loghat Kedah.. She kept asking, "Nanti sampai sana kita pi market ka??" (market nih refers to kedai.. kedai apa2 pun dipanggil 'market'.. cheh, org Kedah terra ckp omputih nooo.. hehe). Aku yg dah lama tak berdialog dgn bahasa Kedah pun try my best to answer her.. sib baik che bolehlah cakap sikit2 nooo.. :-)

View from above -- M'sia's airspace after take off

The flight took us 2 hours. After gone thru the immigration and customs check, we collected our bags and kuar aje dr arrival hall tuh dah ada dah org to pick us up to the hotel. We had arranged earlier from m'sia to have the transportation to pick/drop us @ the airport. Owh, lagi satu.. airport dia nih kechik ajer.. 

The drive from the airport to the hotel was around 10 minutes aje. Kejap je kan? We stayed at Patra Jasa Hotel. Actually, kitorg tak tau nak pilih hotel yg mana satu kat Bandung nih (takleh nak gi hotel yg sama like last year coz the rate is really pricey.. some more kitorg xmo la spend a lot on accommodation pun). Just a few days before gi cuti tuh, ieja n i did a few search from the internet and came up with several hotels. Ainee did all the calling and most of the places were full. Lucky for us, Patra Jasa ada lagi a few rooms.. and tengok2 ada website pulak tuh kan.. so, pakai gamble aje la.. hehehe.

The hotel that we stayed -- Patra Jasa @ Bandung

Mmm, sesampai aje tengok2 hotel tuh mcm lebey kpd motel.. ala, like the ones u see in hollywood-type movies tuh.. hahaha.. mmg nak tergelaklah kitorg.. Tp, apa2 pun for us it was still acceptable. Ala, lagi pun kitorg nih bukan nak melepak lelama kat dlm bilik.. just nak tempat tido and mandi ajer kan?? hik hik..

After freshening up, kitorg pun bergegas kuar dari bilik utk meneruskan misi membeli-belah. Ieja as the Chief-de-Mission did all the inquiring on the public transportation and the places that we need to go for shopping. Fortunate for us since ieja mmg pintar ngomong bahasa indon.. so, apa2 menda yg nak ditanya ker mmg ieja yg akan in charge gituh.. (serepek sama lu ieja, da-da mmg x gheti la nak ckp indon.. maybe jarang2 nonton sinetron kot... unlike U.. hehe.. tp, beneficial kan?? ;-)) Actually, we already knew of a few places that we need to go from the trip last year.. so nak pegi ke tempat2 tuh semula plus a few other 'new' places.

Inilah ANGKOT

We decided to use the public transportation for the whole trip as our mode of moving about.. and the best and most cheapest way is to use the ANGKOT. Angkot is actually short-form for Angkutan Kota. It is actually a van turned-into a bus lah lebey kurg. Servis nye sama aje mcm bas kat mesia. The cheapest fare is Rupiah 1,000 which is RM0.40 ntuk jarak yg paling dekat and yg paling mahal pun Rupiah 2,500 (RM1.00) tuk yg paling jauh..  But it all depends on the pak drebar laa.. ada yg akan charge mahal sbb kita neh pelancong.. tp, mostly masa trip we all tuh takde la yg kena tipu pun.. (mmm, sbb adik aku kot yg pandai ngomong indon..hehe).

Best gak naik angkot. Dapatlah kitorg mingle ngan penduduk tempatan kat sinih. It is common for the drivers to stop and carik penumpang kat tepi2 jalan. If we stand at the road side, there'll be a few of the vans stopping by. Semuanya nak amek penumpang. Kekdg tuh, dorg sanggup tunggu sampai van tu penuh and then baru gerak. Bagus ek servis kat sinih. Tip-top gituh, van tuh pulak yg tunggu kita.. hehe. The drivers siap tekan2 hon lagi untuk tarik penumpang naik van dorg.

Neh foto2 yg sempat disnap dlm ANGKOT....

Ieja (on the left) & Ainee

Myself & Nana

Mak Lang (left) & Mak Nyang

alamak, i need to stop here peeps... belum lagi citer pasal shopping neh.. to be continued...

p/s: seriau ajer bila dengar bunyi rege seribu, dua ribu lima ratus masa naek Angkot tuh.. pada hal murah aje.. kee kee.. (seriau =  takut, loghat Kedah)

..:: it's a small world ::..

Just when i thought that having this blog makes no sense at all, the most surprising thing happened. Today, i am glad to be reunited with my long-lost friend ubisetela. Actually, she was the one who 'found' me. i'm still quite puzzled with the outcome of the whole situation.. but most of all i am really, really happy.. =)

p/s: i have to change my mind once again.. having this blog do make sense eventhough some people may consider it nonsense..

..:: RaLaT LaLaT ::..

A correction to my previous post on Kebenaran Yg Menyusahkan.. CO2 is carbon dioxide peeps and NOT carbon monoxide.. sowwy, my bad.. hehe.. (carbon monoxide is CO) haha.. sure everyone knows 'bout this.. aku jer yg terblur sket.. :P

..:: Oooppss TeR-FOUR-JoT ::..

Hari ni aku baru je masuk ofis after having had a 4 wunnerful-exhilarating-tiring-days away from mesia. Masuk2 aje pagi neh kat ofis, seme org dok tegoq aku sebab dah lama x nampak.. hikhik.. rasa fames kejap beb sebab dpt attention dari org2 yg windu kat aku spt kata dorg lah (betui ke dak che tak tau, kot2 rindu sbb aku tak dak nak tolong depa wat keja.. hehe :P.. adoi camna pulak leh melekat loghat utagha lak nih.. nih mesti kes lepaih melepak ngan 'mak lang' -- n who's mak lang?? ne-mind, u'll soon find out in mah next post...)

Eniwei, aku pun switch on ler PC yg dok elok2 atas workstation aku tuh... and spt kebiasaannya tertera la kat skrin tuh the msgbox prompting me to type in the password to login into the network. Oh-OoOoowh.. aku cuba nak recall aku nyer password.. tapi, tapi.. aku betul-betul takleh nak recall, aku takleh nak ingat langsung. ALAMAK!!! aku betul2 dah terlupa password... huhuhu.. terpaksalah aku kol org IT tuk mintak dorg reset akunyer password balik.. uih, buat malu jer.. terpaksalah mengexplain kenapa aku x ingat password. hikhik, betul2 ler aku nih dok syiok cuti sampai tak hingat langsung pasal keje..

p/s: baru je 4 hari gi cuti, kalo 2 minggu ke sebln ke, mesti lebey teruks.. ntah2 dah x ingat camne nak buat keje.. keekee.. :P

..:: An Inconvenient Truth - Trailer ::..

This is the trailer for An Inconvenient Truth (following my previous post). Do view!

..:: KeBeNaRaN yg MeNYuSaHKaN ::..

Baru2 nih, aku dapat tengok this one documentary film entitled "An Inconvenient Truth". It's not actually a movie, movie type thingy, more on a lecture type based on research findings that was presented by mr Al Gore (bekas VP US tuh). Anyway, the whole film was about global warming and it touches on the usage of carbon monoxide or CO2.

Okay, citer skrg ni yg aku amek from the movie is that penggunaan CO2 ni mmg dah di tahap yg melampaui batas... As a result, our climate dah jadik tunggang-langgang. This is simply because all the CO2 and other gases are trapped inside the earth's atmosphere which increases the temperature of the earth. When the earth's temperature rises, it also brings about other effects like the melting of the glaciers on the top of the snow capped mountains. Uih, ada dorang tunjuk gambar2 of a few mountains yg dulu ada byk glaciers but skrg nih tinggal ciput ajer.. Not only that, the ice on the Artic and Antartica are melting.. which also brings about the rising of the sea levels.. and in addition, when the sea level rises, all the areas around the coastal shores will be submerged in water.. aiyoo, very the scary.. mmg la depa dok tunjuk gambaran kat US tuh, but it could very well happen in Malaysia too.. mmm, skrg ni pun dah dok banjir kat Johor. Just imagine if that is going to happen for good.. nanti dah takde tempat dah nak tinggal.. or what if the whole country tenggelam?? isn't it scary?? wallahu'alam..

Apart from that, when the temperature increases, banyaklah jugak penyakit2 yg timbul i.e SARS, Malaria, Avian flu and memacam lagilah.. Sebabnya, musim panas akan lebey panjang daripada musim sejuk (nih utk negara 4 musim).. From the movie dia bagi example of this beetle bug yg suka makan pine trees.. Bila, suhu makin meningkat, musim sejuk akan jadik singkat and musim panas akan lebey panjang.. so, these insects akan ada jangka hayat yg lebey lama and akan attack all the pine trees yg ada.. jadiknyer makhluk perosak nih akan idup lebey lama.. contoh lagi, mosquitos yang dulunyer hanya dok melilau kat kawasan tanah rendah, skrg nih dah berani dah nak berterbangan kat kawasan tanah tinggi sebab suhu panas kat tanah tinggi yg membuatkan mereka boleh ke sana.. ouch, ouch.. kena gigit nyamuk lah pulak.. come on mr nyamuk, jangan gigit aku laa... ada byk lagi menda yg ko boley gigit.. nih idak gatai sangat nak cium2 orang.. huhuhu.. (ke laen lah pulak yer.. :P)

Ada lagi yg dorang story.. Ini pasal hurricane yg makin bermaharajalela kesan drpd global warming.. still remember hurricane katrina?? or yg baru2 nih.. taufan durian kan yg kena kat Filipina tuh.. Semuanya kesan dari kepanasan yg melampau.. Mmm, aku pun rasa cam percaya jugaklah menda2 nih berlaku sebab global warming.. (mmm, maybe lah kot) Dok tengok skrg nih pun cuaca mmg dah tak menentu.. Hari tu baca paper, ada few ski resorts kat overseas yg tutup because takde snow.. (ala, tak yah gi jejauh pun kan?? Kat mesia pun tak abis lagi pasal banjir kat Johor). Tp, tau dak pengguna CO2 yg paling byk sekali kat dunia nih - oghang2 amerika nih la.. ish, ish.. apalah dorg ni kan.. tau buat kerosakan aje kat dunia nih.. aiyoo, mr gore sendiri pun try to bawak issue nih masa dia nyer campaign tuk bertanding lawan bush.. tp, malangnya org dok kata it's a hoax.. they just want to ignore this issue and biarkan aje..

apa2 pun you have to see it for yourself utk percaya ke idak.. as for me, it really opened up my mind and made me think bout our environment.. about the future.. about people and how foolish, selfish and ignorant people can be.. ntah, after watching it rasa macam i really wanna do something to make this world a better place to live in.. mmm, maybe try not to exhale so much CO2 for a start... hehehe, just kidding.. :P

..:: WaSSuP, WaSSuP BeB?? ::..

Yikes.. i know, i know.. it's been a while since i last updated my blog.. and i also know that i was supposed to start off writing bout my weight loss issue in my next post [which is this one lah!!] But, at this current moment, i really don't feel like writing it.. Nak kena ada inspiration la beb.. still waiting for that purfect timing.. hikhik.. takpe aahh, nanti aku story gak yer.. tunnnggguuuuu!!!

So, wassup with me?? nothing much really.. It's just that i've been very2 busy with work, woRK, WORK!! Since last saturday, i had to come to office and settle my work.. [tapi tak abis2 jugak... cam siots jer.. :P] and this week had to stayback in the office.. yesterday i stayed til 7.30pm and today dah berhajat nak stay lambat lagi dari semalam tp belum sempat apa2 around 7.45pm dah kena 'halau' ngan org office services sebab dorg nak kunci pintu opis [mmm, masa nih lah aku ingin sangat nak spare key opis neh.. macam kawan aku sorg tuh.. senang sikit kan, boley buat cam rumah sendiri.. hikhik.. boleh kuar masuk sesuka ati.. hahaha.. nanti betul2 feel like aku nih cam takde life.. owh, opisku, rumahku jua.. :P ] and esok, lusa pun camtuh jugakla kots.. Luckily this friday our office will be closed {Note: Opis aku kalo public holiday falls on saturday, hari jumaat mmg cuti.. yippee!! jangan jeles maa.. :P}

Mmm, sure korang dok pikiaq yang aku nih workaholic kan?? hikhik.. idak ler gitu.. Ekceli, next week ni aku nak amek cuti (4 days break). Nak gi somewhere with my two lovely sisters.. Itulah pasal yang bersemangat nak siapkan semua keje before i'm away.. Lagi pun, aku dah habaq kat boss dah yg dia toksah worry sebab aku akan make sure semua keje settle before aku bercuti.. huhuhu.. itulah, janji lagi.. skrg nih kena suffer sikitlah.. huhu.. and some more, skang nih tgh nak closing accounts for the month.. parah, parah.. sebab aku nak kena siapkan accruals before aku gi cuti.. huhuhu.. and another BIG HUHUHU!!!

kayla, aku pun takdak idea lagi nak story.. my brain dah penat.. aku nak pi tidoq awai sikit malam nih.. till l8r.. ciao cincau..

..:: Ze 1st WeeK iN Ze 1st MonTH of 2007 ::..

Ahlan Wa-Sahlan, Welcome, Selamat Datang... whateva it is 2007 is here!!! I'm still not too late to wish everyone a very Happy New Year.. After 4 days in 2007, so far semuanya is smooth sailing for me.. alhamdulillah :-)

Resolusi?? oppss... Resolutions you might ask.. Aku sebelum2 nih mmg tak pernah nak letak sesuatu azam apabila sampai sahaja tahun baru.. Sebabnya, apa yg aku praktikkan sebelum ni ialah utk perbaiki diri pada setiap hari.. try to make my life better with each passing day.. But this year, terasa macam lain pulak.. rasa berkobar-kobar utk meletakkan target dan azam in writing.. (mmm, kenapa pulak yer?? mungkin sebab rasa epi aje sejak dua menjak nih.. hehehe.. )

Firstly, i do want my life to be better this year, in all aspects lor.. nak berusaha perbaiki segala kelemahan yg ada utk jadi yg lebey baik.. (insya Allah..) Try to understang, ehh.. understand & manage myself better.. yup, byk lagi yg nak kena aku usaha.. especially nak usaha utk manage my emotions dgn cara yg sepositif mungkin.. sebelum2 nih dah kena drill ngan menda2 negatif ajer.. aku pun tak ndak la asyik dok pikiaq menda2 yg buruk2, yg bukan2, yg buruk-sangka ke apa.. aku mmg nak tukar balik kepala otak nih dari negatif dan pesimis kepada positif dan optimis.. (insya Allah.. i really need to train my brain and use my mind power.. tuh-heehee )

Secondly, nak teruskan usaha aku utk kuruskan badan.. Emm, did i mentioned that last year i managed to lose 15 Kilograms? Yup, i really did.. with a lot of effort that is.. alhamdulillah, skang nih dah slim but i still wanna lose around +/- 10 kgs to reach my target weight and have a healthy BMI (right now my BMI is like a bit in the overweight range..) And oso, my sis Kak Lina for the many millionth time dok suruh aku write in my blog bout my weight loss journey.. supaya menjadik inspirasi bagi mereka2 yg mengalami masalah berat badan.. (bukan aku cakap tp akak ku yg selalu dok soh aku log it out in black & white).. so nyer, insya Allah akan ku usahakan nanti...

Thirdly, nak improve my writing skills.. aku ingat ex-boss aku masa keje kat Maxis dok kata org2 IT nih mmg tak reti nak tulis2 report ke apa... adoi.. mmg menyakitkan ati.. iyerla aku keje kat corporate comm dept.. tp teruk betul, tak bagi chance langsung nak involve ngan report ke press release ker tulis formal letter ker apa... sakit ati tul la.. benchi kan kalo org yg ckp mcm tuh tanpa usul periksa.. mmg la org IT nih selalunya dilabelkan cam tuh.. hanya reti nak buat programming ikut logical thinking.. tulis pun ikut step-by-step and line-by-line, if-then-else and what not.. mmm, bukan semua org macam tuh kan?? and aku rasa aku pun tak camtuh.. aku ada byk idea, tp cuma terkadang bercelaru ajer.. nak kena sort it out and try to explain it sebaik mungkin... Lagi pun writing nih bagus apa.. nak release all the emotions dat i'm feeling inside.. (tuh-heehee..sebabnyer, aku nih lebih banyak diam jer dari cakap.. and mmg tak suka cakap byk pun.. hehehe.. lebey suka tulis apa yg aku rasa..)

Tuh jer my main concern skang nih... yg lelain tuh mostly menda yg kechik2 jer kot.. will unveil as i go along.. again HAPPY NEW YEAR 2007 TO ALL!!!!

p/s: do anticipate the upcoming posts which gonna touch on my weight loss experience..